♀ TheLonelyTeddy ♂

Saturday, July 11, 2009 8:10:00 PM

@ THAT FKING CLONE WHO IS CLONING ME AND TROLLING
COULD YOU PLZ KINDLY FK OFF MY CBOX?

WHY DO YOU NEED TO USE MY NAME
HUMJI DUN DARE USE UR OWN NAME?

@sinyee cayln momo sharon zarel.
sorry guys
that really wasnt me
i was in audi afking around 12 ( i was in free 1 rm 1)
and with GMSummerProm at 3( i was in event channel lobby or rm6)

really
i swear
it wasnt me
i will nt show attitude in this way
im nt that spiteful to do all those

TheLonelyTeddy

7:27:00 AM

im thinking

ignoring those blogs.
ignoring those cbox.
ignoring those that make me emo.

i had enough.
i cnt take it anymore.
stop it.

....

well was practically rottng ytd.
the duno hw many days of rotting.
rot so long liaos. sian larh when den decompose
MAMA WENT JAPAN...
WOOHOOOO....
can crazy from 9am-4pm liaos
nt 2pm-4pm. 5 EXTRA HOURS. WOOOO
but.. sian larhz. oni 1 week..
BUT NEVERTHELESS... WOOOOOOOOT
but was kinda... emo...
dun like mama be away..
but... she dun go she no earn extra money...
she went there to take lessons... LOOL
hmm..
been tinking.
either i continue rotting ad wasting resources.
or i stop and find a job.
hais. duno larhz

TheLonelyTeddy

Friday, July 10, 2009 9:33:00 PM

hey. listen up
i didnt give any dam shitty stories to anyone
i gave all those involved in this...
all those who are scolding me or whatever
those blog links
i gave them
let them judge the story
i nv did say anything

please la
think about it la
i hate the way everyone is behaving
the more this happens
the more i do not dare go to school

if you are so dam fking noble to say
u are making me go to sku
IN THIS FKING DAM STUPID WAY
I TELL YOU THIS IS THE LOUSIEST WAY
i thought over the holidays things will quieten down
I WILL RETURN TO SCHOOL IF THINGS QUIETEN DOWN
YOU FKING ASSHOLES WHO ARE TRYING TO SPITE ME
INTO GOING TO SCHOOL
GET A LIFE
WHAT U DOING IS MAKING ME STAY AWAY MORE
AND TO TELL THE TRUTH
I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
IS ONLY YOU THIS FKING RETARDS MAKING ME
DIFFICULT TO RETURN
SO FKING FK OFF AND GET A LIFE
GO SPITE SOMEONE ELSE

TheLonelyTeddy

Wednesday, July 8, 2009 6:04:00 PM

plz la
u ask around
i ask ppl to call me teddy
is that a prob? that is a name for myself la duh
besides

to those clones
no lifer lar
stop bullshitting using my name

im going to stop reply in cbox
so... those clones who bullshit in cbox...
u cnt clone me anymore

TheLonelyTeddy

2:05:00 PM

to those ppl who are raking up the past
and making a din with it
judging me nw with the things i done in the past
i find u utterly childish

i do not wish to make enemity with anyone
with those extremely immature tinking i had last time

i just only want to be friends again
asking your forgivness for my mistakes

to those no-lifers that are spamming my cbox with that annoymous name
get a life
dun act act use 2 or more name to spam lar
dare say ppl humji dun dare put name?

TheLonelyTeddy

12:25:00 AM

to all people which i offended with some post i wrote
im here, sincerely,
beg ur forgiveness for my foolishness silliness and stuborness.
sorry for the mistakes i haven done
i hope you will forgive me.
i know im disliked or hated by you
forgiving aint that easy,
but i hope one day you will forgive me.

@passerby... it wasnt love... it was hao gan

TheLonelyTeddy

Tuesday, July 7, 2009 11:24:00 PM

im missing you...
im scared to lose you...
im scared that u aint up to my req...

what should i do...

TheLonelyTeddy

1:14:00 AM

o5o7o9
我认识了你
o7o7o9
我对不起你
o8o7o9
我永远爱着你

我爱你

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, July 6, 2009 12:38:00 AM

hmm~ ytd 4get blog~
ytd...
nv slp
den 6am went slp
in living room
w/o fan
3hrs later
sibei hot
den wake lers

yeah~ if slp in own room
sure on fan
den...
cfm slp till 6pm

so...
ting call in sick
everyone cant pei wo...
and that stupid ven ;wild

took cab down...
11plus... omg... wallet got flies lers

den reach le...
played 1hr de...
those keyboards there if i nt wrong is called razor keyboard
very nice sia...
tinking of buying ...

so the compy start at 7...F5
den...
1st round play with zinc...
LOLs i nervous lar
miss cfm... on both songs

i went there to lose... rmb? LOLs

den revival i got 7th rank
means i got top 15 lor
WOOHOOOO

den stupid ven turn up
he fake me sia
tell me cnt go down
den in the end he showed up
F5 hao lar
but den play cpl mode challenge
we lost..
4th ranking
21 hearts
but
that one is thanks to his slamming
stupid ... that whatever guy that call him dun slam
den make us cnt get third
F5F5F5F5F5F5F5F5

still...
F>TX RL BF AGE17+
for the whole day
LOLs
hmm
wish i found the right one bahz

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, July 2, 2009 5:41:00 AM

no one ever understand the pain im going thru everyday
no one will understand the pain im going thru everyday
no one knws hw im struggling thru everyday

NO ONE

my heart alr has loads of holes
it doesnt matter if there is another hole in it

my heart has alr been broken
is has nv been whole to start with

i dun mind getting hurt again

i just want to be loved
i just want to love somebody
why is it so difficult

everyday is a living torture for me...
fulfil my wish... or leave me dead...

dun say im trying to gain sympathy...
i knw there are ppl out there more... den me...
in my world of ppl... i dun tink there is...

TheLonelyTeddy

12:57:00 AM

how much blood must my heart flow before i can find the perfect stopper to block the hole

TheLonelyTeddy

Saturday, June 13, 2009 2:06:00 AM

Found audi cpl 2day
cuz go buy cash
den buy dj deck
n winner rm item
den found him
xiiaodidi
age 18
hope can last~ ...
plz

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, June 11, 2009 3:13:00 AM

i didnt wanted to be controlling or possesive
i was afraid to lose you
the love of my life
i loved you
i love you
im still loving you

for many times as i recall
we oni met 3 times
i still rmb how we met
who was there also
where and
when we meet
and what we did
i couldnt forget those memories
they were forever there
no matter hw i tried to shake them off
i could rmb until the finest detail
even the conversations we had

even we broke up
everytime when we start to have a few sentence
my heart which is currently loving someone else
fluttered back to you
but i dont want to break that promise again

im sry abt that promise i broke time and time again
the promise i made on 18th february
outside suntec 3/4 lvl arcade
which u ask me promise you to nv let go of ur hand
but which i did more den 3 times
i felt that audi is more impt to u den i am
what was me to you?
what was my place in ur heart?

somewhere between our conversations i fell in love again
but this time learning so many lessons
falling hard onto the concrete pavement
injuring myself everytime
i learnt to let go

hope you will find a person
who u like and doesnt control you

TheLonelyTeddy

1:44:00 AM

我愿为你　忘记我姓名
就算多一秒　停留在你怀裡
失去世界也不可惜

我愿意為你　被放逐天際
只要你真心　拿愛与我回应
我什麼都愿意

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, June 8, 2009 1:45:00 AM

i finally understand whye i dun like go to sku
partially reason
im competitive by nature
so kinda sku doesnt appeal to me
cuz uncompetitive
maple and audi more competitive
den plus on
the main reason
i want to escape from reality
so i hide in the cyber world
idk
i wish i got that courage to face the music
im still hiding in cyber world
i tink i have to get out of it
face the music
think only
no action
even i know tml need go to sku
i promised my family i go sku
but now im still on the computer
on the phone with xiaoxiong
and tinking to pon sku and not going to sku tml

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, May 28, 2009 2:08:00 PM

cayln~
u no nid feel insecure or whatever de ma~
i mean...whye u feel guilty depressed and afraid?
i dun understand leh~
for my emo post it wasnt anything related to you
it was juz that day pon sku
go audi no ppl pei
go maple no ppl pei
go msn no ppl pei
i dun like being alone de luh
so kinda lonely liao den emo liao

i know that i will always have 5 besties....
tingting...zhaodan...qianping...junling...and marmee<3
fwens i made in this sku~
idk which i can really say is my bestie

i understand what you people are doing
and im certainly trying to change myself
... sharon is right la... i go where oso tink of my mummeh and ex de luh
... nt nv tink ex riaos... i nid to move on..
mummeh is cuz.. dunno.. kinda grown attached to her alot...

for my reason whye i nv go sku...
juz ask my sec sku mates...
last time i pon 1 mth...2 mths...
and the reason is whye i pon now
there is nth to attract me to go to sku
i mean... i dun care about that cert...
i dun care about tat stepping stone for me go poly
i dun care....
the reason whye i wake up 5am in the morning
to go sku everyday even though im tired
is the most simple answer...
6 letter word~ starting with B_____

whom im truly cared for they dunno that
whom they truly cared for me...i knw that
but im always doing smth to disappoint them time and again

and i understand what u meant on 26th de post
im nt abandoning any friendship
i juz want to cast them aside
so that i can concentrate on changing
when i cfm i changed...
i will jio bac the friendship de

most ppl like me...
nid smth veri veri harsh to make us wake up
i got smth harsh from that last phone call
which i dialed on the date of my last post...
and im trying to change

to mummeh~ i will change de luh
i dun wan lose you this bestie okay
i shall try no more emo post
i dun wan what hui said to rily come true
...
private blog is where my deepest feelings are...
my heart is cold and lonely so is veri diff to nt post emo...

...
and btw i stop blogging that often le
im not that... free~ and it become a bit tedious to update both blogs
check back my blog every... 10 days or so~
and oso i stop visiting everyone blog that much le...
if u got anything to tell me... tell me on msn
or tell me on msn to go where to read what u wan to tell me
...

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, May 25, 2009 10:07:00 PM

自杀的念头又来了
突然间觉得
这世上没有一样东西值得我活下去
朋友。。。我没有
亲人。。。我没有
一无所有了
什么？
什么值得我活下去？
我很想去死
但没有那个勇气
求求你杀了我
不要再折磨我了

juz took a penknife up
den wanted to slash my wrist
but stopped cuz dun dare
dun hab those courage to slash
feel like jumping
but den rmb last time sit at windowsill de feeling
dun dare again
sum1 teach me how kill myself pl0x

i know i die riaos no one will even bother
cuz im always that thorn in their eye
no one will even know that im gone

TheLonelyTeddy

Friday, May 22, 2009 1:34:00 AM

way too foolish riaos
i no sense of alertness de
haiz
stupid seh
idk what came over me

haiz i will forget what happen 2day
and i must forget
this is a lesson i must learn and take

wish it is not as serious as what i have found bahz
if it is what ting said will be best ><

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, May 21, 2009 9:53:00 PM

can say i flirt or what luh

but i knw i got feelings for zhong xian dennon and dominic

feelings for dennon might be the most strongest de bahz ><

juz that his actions made those feelings fade away

feelings for zhong xian is kinda mid mid that kind ><

dominic is a bit bit that kind bahz ><

TROUBLED ARH ><

TheLonelyTeddy

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 2:40:00 PM

mummeh i knw u always tell me stuff abt him with good intentions
even if i knw riaos i oso will bluff myself that that aint real
cuz i dun wan spoil his perfect image in my heart

if he wanna leave i gonna let him leave
cuz i know nth can make him stay behind
not even what he wanted can make him stay
even if it is done at most stay for a short period of time
after that he will leave and then nth can rily make him stay
and i dun wan do smth which i know is going to be fruitless

ytd talked with joe(refer to the 1st few post of the blog to know who is he)
after talking with him i cried
and thought about what im actually doing
i feel that im finding a new relationship cuz to ward off that loneliness
but i juz cnt find the perfect one cuz i cnt find another person like him
i juz miss those hugs and kisses he gave me
i dun feel much feeling around other guys
like is like but dun hab those very very special feelings
is like finding a lifebouy which is like that boat i was on

or ijjit he possess those qualities i find in a bf?
or ijjit i still could not forget him?
that y i find rs oso find his kind de?
or ijjit this corner he had in my heart cnt be wipe out?

his face is fading from my memories
the only thing i rmb is the hugs and kisses he gave
and where we go and did
only those good memories stayed

b4 i can get myself throw totally in another relationship
i have to forget him completely
not a single memory have to stay

TheLonelyTeddy

12:57:00 AM

2day meet him
den after that depart den he tell me on msn
that he no feel for me
so cnt tgt
1st thing i tot of was
what did u ever said to me on msn sia?
but i never tell him luh~
i told him in white font
that i will be waiting for him
and there will be this place in my heart that belongs to you forever
a bit foolish right?
i juz stepped into the quick sand
and this have to happen?

TheLonelyTeddy

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 12:37:00 PM

2day early in the morning wake up cuz he say meet 8am
den went to hougang
den check the time ... 7.30am @_@
den 8 plus den call him he den come down
den walk walk den 10plus i headed for sku riaos
cuz both of us tired cuz wake early ><
den he wan go back slp ><
den i go sku on comp use msn tell him things luh
cuz when with him i veri silent
cuz i got things to say but dun dare to say
but when dare to say den not the right time to say
kinda regretted it sia
but ppl paiseh ma ><><
kk luh~ juz have to train up to be not that paiseh in front of him
den next time i can dare say riaos
no more writing in white font for me riaos ^^

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, May 18, 2009 9:48:00 PM

(No Offense When I Say This Hors)

kinda disappointed with cayln n momo bahz

cuz i reckon sharon grp is pontang grp
bear grp is kisiao grp
fenella grp is guaikia grp

den kinda to me it seems like cayln n momo this pair
kinda like joinned sharon grp riaos
i scared they 2 learn frm the others pontang and pontang
which cayln alr pon alot of lesson alr
scared her attendance @_@

2day was talking to him b4 i go sku~
everytime i talking with him will feel...
so sibei happy

ytd like talk till 1am bahz @.@
den kinda worried n happi until i cnt slp until 2plus @_@
worried cuz i scared i will lose him
happy is cuz i love him

tml can see him riaos~
den thursday see him again~
im starting to get my emotions deeper and deeper

77088013143344520

TheLonelyTeddy

Sunday, May 17, 2009 9:03:00 PM

frankly~
im loving Salt more and more
even tho i haven officially broke up with him
but i just feel that that night's fone call was nth
we had broke for more den 10 weeks
he doesnt matter to me anymore
Salt is all that matters to me
NUMBER 1 MISSION FOR NOW
GET A HANDPHONEEEEE
or who can spon me arhz?
i wan unlimited sms de~ den i can sms till siao

TheLonelyTeddy

12:52:00 AM

reflecting? and understanding? and trying to make changes?
yep~ that is what i should do
reflecting~ reflected during this 2day holiday i gave myself
understanding~ understooded during this 2day holiday i gave myself
change~ i must change i can change i will change

even tho sinyee cnt see my this blog i juz have to thank her
what she blogged made me understand
which helped me reflect
which made me want to change

I MUST CHANGEEEEEEE

learn frm adam khoo~ write big big put into room see everyday

TheLonelyTeddy

Friday, May 15, 2009 9:00:00 PM

was feeling veri moody and depressed ytd n 2day
muz make sure monday muz go to sku

marmee~ sry leh
i was supposed to cheer u up last night
and it became u cheer me up instead

if i m not wrong
i do not bully boys or kisiao gurls
only bully quiet gurls more

the portrait of my life is painted with the brush of my characteristic

you which i have invited to understand more about me
i consider u a bestie
even though i bully u at times
but i still do regard u as a bestie
believe me~ i can and will do anything for you
cuz i believe that you are my fwen and forever is
please tolerate me at times
but do not forget to use a tone that will wake me up
to tell me that u are actually hating whatever im doing

i want to tell him that i wan brk riaos cuz i cnt stand it
it has been 12 days since he contacted me
but i wun go and sms him telling him that i want to talk to him
there is this such thing called as silent break bahz
i will slowly creep out of ur life
i think that u alr forgotten my phone number
树叶的离开, 是应为树的不挽留，还是风的追求?
虽然我对班上的某某男生产生好感
但是我会离开你是应为我觉得你根本都不在乎
而不是我喜欢上另外一个男生
应为你好像不再爱我了所以我很容易就会渐渐的喜欢上别人
你不要忘了我曾经对你说过
我很容易掉入爱河里
但是我答应你的事情我一定会办得到
我的心里永远都会有你的存在我心里的某一个角落永远属于你的

TheLonelyTeddy

8:11:00 PM

i feel like such a jerk
after nearly 17 yrs
this is this first time a friend told me so serverely
that i had crossed the borders

now i finally understand
my character personality attitude
does really sux alot

i wonder how tingting and zhaodan put up with me for 4 yrs and never brk contact
i wonder how junling put up with me 6-10 yrs and never brk contact

now i really hate my life
everything seems to have gone haywire after 1mth
i could have juz ended everything by jumping dont u tink?
but wes korkor wun allow that to happen
he will scold and scold and scold me cuz it is only running away from the problem

everything must come to an end
EVERYTHING

the only reason y i didnt attend sku on thursday and friday is cuz
i didnt wanted to face them
i juz wanted to avoid them
i really hated how my life was heading

the main reason whye im acting like such a jerk is cuz my shadows over everything
is kinda like a protective cover luh

only people that have access to my this private blog are :
bear, cayln, chunhui zeh, keeyee, mummeh, qianping, tingting, vonnes and xinhui zeh
plz dun tell others the contents in this blog for goodness sake
especially bear cayln and vonnes

TheLonelyTeddy

8:03:00 PM

thelonelyteddy.blogspot.com will be converted to a private blog
so those whom i never invite to read it plz do not link that account

TheLonelyTeddy

1:05:00 AM

telling you people my secret

there is 2 of me~
where as 1 will only show when there is only me around
the other is always present until no people is around

so u can say
im always putting up an act
my mask is rooted deeply into mi until idk who is the real me

keeyee~ thanks for telling me that i make a great buddy~ and thanks for missing me
i tink oni u and ting will contact me bahz~ not to mention minghuang and qianping and zhaodan n sum other kind souls~

thanks for letting mi know that my cold jokes is a LOL material
bu to let u knw~ the me for now aint that happy to tell cold jokes so much

to that baka who juz want to dismoralize me
GET OUT OF MY LIFE UNTIL U KNW HOW TO ENCOURAGE PPL INSTEAD OF DISCOURAGE

i said riaos
ppl is trying to change
DO NOT miss out on that word called TRYING
i oni entered into this enviroment 1mth plus a few days
WHAT MAKES U TINK THAT I CAN CHANGE IN SUCH A SHORT TIME
_l_ OFF

and to that idiot who use my name _l_ OFF MY BLOG LA

hu is amanda arhz? O.O

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, May 14, 2009 12:54:00 AM

haiz~ mummeh mai sad le leh~
papa haven brk cpl leh
means u still got chance ma
let him cool down abit bit first?

我认为
爱不一定要拥有
若爱一个人，就要想尽办法然他开心
如果他离你而去他会快乐，那让他去吧
每个人多想使自己爱的人的开心
但是不是每个人都有这个机会
有了机会都不懂得珍惜

mummeh mai so sad leh
u lidat i not used to it u knw?
i wan my happy mummeh back
that one that i once knew
see u lidat i oso dun dare emo or depressed infront of u riaos
n see u lidat i cnt stop thinking can how make u happier
i knw it is impossible to call u stop tinking of him but u have to try
the strong mummeh i knew go where riaos?
i understand how u feel luh not 100% but still at least 75%

要记住：
人往往不会珍惜拥有的一切，
不见了才会懂得珍惜，
既然你们两brk le patch, patch le brk 这么多次，
怎么还是不懂得怎么样珍惜？
我相信你们还是会和回来的
记住！和回来就要懂得珍惜不要在等到下一次再吵架再后悔

ps~ 2day i rily cnt help u call papa cuz i was in sku~
den i bec riaos ask u wan call u bo reply me

mummeh~
无论发生什么事，我一定会在你身旁支撑着你的。
只是有些时候我帮不了忙，为了这我感到非常个抱歉

mummeh lidat i kinda veri bo mood tink of anything else riaos
i only want find ways to cheer her up
because she rank 2nd position in my heart
1st is of course him ... 2nd is mummeh ... 3rd is laopo
4th is zehzeh ... and i tink i no 5th bahz~ after zehzeh is all those common fwens luh

mummeh~ i knw u can tide over this derhx
i knw u are stong enuff to tide over it
jiayous~ 我会支持你的

TheLonelyTeddy

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 7:45:00 PM

i juz feel so sick of everything that is going on
i juz seem to like cnt please anyone
feel like everyone hates mi
every single person

I HATE MY LIFE [FML]

my class sub divided into 5 cliques
malays gurls 1 clique
boys 1 clique
chinese gurls 3 cliques
the clique i have been with since sku start like kinda dun rike mi riaos
the current clique i hang out with like nt my type...too studious
i like to hang out with laopo
but she pon so much~
and besides later ppl rily tink i les i cham
the other clique i tink i cnt blend in la
i tink im returning to that loner life again which i totally dun want

i got this kinda feeling that he gt bluff me abt smth lidat
i cnt pinpoint it out
i juz feel like sms-ing him ask him can call him tell him smth impt
but i dun wan like last monday
is like i sms den he on if i didnt he wun
i feel like telling him to settle his problems b4 he wan patch
but lidat i abit veri what lidat
i know i should be understanding
but i kinda miss him alot
i wish to see him 1 more time
i wish to hug him 1 more time
i wish to kiss him 1 more time

chunhui zehzeh~
ur fan ying dun so big when i share those problem with u can ma?
relax luh~
ur mei not that stupid
she know what to do and what not to do
she understand how alot of things work
and she definately knw hw ppl use [tat thing u veri big fan ying 2] to get what they want
and knw that things she want doesnt happen thru [tat thing u veri big fan ying 2]
ur mei is nt stupid in things lidat derhx
tho ur mei is veri immature but she is veri mature in sum areas

TheLonelyTeddy

6:12:00 PM

i miss you~
y do i tink that u lied to me abt smth?

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, May 11, 2009 10:57:00 PM

haiz~
since monday that night bo contact riaos~
dear~ i miss you~
i feel like calling u~
but i scared what response will i get~
i want to trust you alot
but idk hw much could i trust u
cuz after last monday talk u said u tired
den wednesday i talking with mummeh
she say she say u in free1
rm name F> malaysians to chat on fone
i tink is lidat if i nv rmb wrongly
and besides if i didnt sms u that morning
i wonder would u be on9 that night

i dun wan u patch with me cuz u gt ulterior motive
i dun mean anth by saying this
im fine with anth u want to do
dun use the reason that i love you to get things u want
things do not work that way that u are thinking

糟糕~ 我怀疑我喜欢上班上的某某男同学了~怎么办？

TheLonelyTeddy

10:51:00 PM

Just A Word Of Caution To Everyone~

Even Though How I Behave

I Am Just Only A Fun-Loving Person

And Kisiao At Most Times

Just Do Not Mistaken My Actions

And Think That I Am Les

Because I Do Not Have Any Interest In Girls

And I Currently Have A Boyfriend

TheLonelyTeddy

12:12:00 AM

friday~
i realised pontan~ing aint a good thing to do
cuz i feel sibei boliao
sian la

saturday~
rotting off~

sunday~
decomposing~
gave tha super cute little teddy bear i bot at the canival to my mum~
she like veri surprised

sian la~
this few days kip got slp afternoon nap~
den night slp late late
morning wake late late
GRRRRR

tml nid wake 5.30am
so that can go sku~
WOOHOO~

i mish laopo~
but happily tml can go sku mit laopo~
MUACKS~

*word of caution to all~ I AM NOT A LESBIAN*

TheLonelyTeddy

Friday, May 8, 2009 10:17:00 PM

从昨天到今天
还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边

爱的心痛的心
等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱我很放心

当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有点茫然迷惑

朝夕相处才发现这世界中
没有人比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容

老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

从昨天到今天
还有明天
感谢老天让你们陪在我身边

爱的心痛的心
等待的心
因为有你们的拥抱我很放心

当初见面的不安彼此探索
也许有点茫然迷惑

朝夕相处才发现这世界中(no)
没有人(body)比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容

老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

lalalala ~~

朝夕相处才发现这世界中(no)
没有人(body)比你们更懂我

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容

老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久
请记得约定的旅程到永久

TheLonelyTeddy

9:12:00 PM

我最不希望我最相信的人利用我
我知道我笨又傻但是请你不要利用我的缺点来骗我好吗？

洁斯妈妈说了很多对你不利的话（ma no offense hor）
但是我听了就没有去想了
我不希望你在我背后搞三搞四的

我不希望怀疑你什么
我想一只相信你下去
请你不要给我一个怀疑你的理由

请你不要伤害我了
我永远爱着你

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, May 7, 2009 10:14:00 PM

2day wake up at 8am
den quick quick chiong to sku
reach sku at 9am

den play for the next 2 hours
den went jen house with sinyee to change clothes~
house so clean~
i tink i see sinyee house
den dare let ppl come my house
cuz i tink mine is the most messy house of all

took mrt to amk den eat lunch there
laopo mit me sinyee and jen after we finished lunch

den we headed down to kbox
if i nv rmb wrong jen made membership
den we firstly was given room 7 or 9 i tink
den cuz they say got smoke smell
den the peeps change to room 5
den sing sing sing
i first there act cool
den jen like sibei high leh
den i oso high up riaos

laopo i aint les hors
but i know i nearly every 情歌 oso dedicate and face her sing derhx
LOL

until sibei high sia~
now still high-ing

den we sang 2 times S.H.E 老婆
cuz i dedicate to my laopo's dehx
sinyee my da laopo cayln my er laopo jen my xiao laopo
but i rather call sinyee and jen by there name~
and call cayln laopo

the last song we sung is W-H-Y and b4 that is 老婆
cuz i wan dedicate that song to them so they rmb
actually wanted to sing that 脱掉 but the damn thing stop GRRRR
sien luh
nvm~
next time 1st song will be 脱掉 den everyone get high first

the next time can go is when i return my debts and get ard $20 to go out
den no nid borrow riaos~
$14++ i tink i muz try get money faster return all 3 of them
1 person return abt $5
but muz return laopo more cuz she pay my dinner oso

i sung alot of songs
most are S.H.E songs
but i know my singing sux

laopo sing sibei nice sia~
so everytime she hold the mic
i will try to hush sinyee and jen up
juz to listen to laopo sing LOL

sienz~ oni left laopo 2 hours ago
and i start to mish her riaos~
die riaos~
den tml cnt see her cuz she pon-ing
den sat and sun oso no chance
T.T
monday den can see her
LAOPO I MISH JHOO <333333333333>

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, May 4, 2009 5:42:00 PM

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TheLonelyTeddy

1:39:00 AM

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TheLonelyTeddy

Sunday, May 3, 2009 9:27:00 PM

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because
you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because
your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder
what they would have done,or could have had done.

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye.

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them
how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

What would you do if you never got the chance to say
I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live, but people die. I want to tell you thatyou are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)you would be in my heart.

Would I be in yours?

If you care about me as much as I care about you you will send this back.

We might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about you.

Tell this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this and takecomfort in knowing somebody
out there cares about you andalways will.

I care about YOU !

Tell this to all the friends that you have...
all the friends that you've lost...
and to all the friends you've lost touch with...
just to let them know that you care.

TheLonelyTeddy

7:44:00 PM

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TheLonelyTeddy

Saturday, May 2, 2009 8:50:00 PM

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为什么你最近好像不理我了
只是想你多点陪我有错吗

TheLonelyTeddy

7:53:00 PM

2day so damn fun sio~
at least my mind was free from thinking of sum vexing things

wake up at 9
bath liao
den open comp play play
den turn up 10~15 min late
mit 11am den i late TT_TT

den went eat brkfast+lunch cuz sinyee hungry
den went around asking ppl how to go there
den walk walk walk until lost~
den we took cab there
LOL each 1 pay 76 cents hehe~

den reach riaos
den got the thermal check worhs
swine flu is so damn !@#$%^&*(*&@!
den we there shop and play and dk do what like siao
and regret eating at novena there
sienz
den i bought quite a few things
den use 2 tickets
den zarel bo use den i take
den take riaos still borrow 1.50 from jervis(i tink spell lidat)
cuz sibei hawt ar
nid buy ICE water cool down

den cuz zarel nt feeling well
dk is food she ate or izzit the weather too hawt
den we take bus.. 54?
back to novena
but we overshot
den walk back
den slack at the foodcourt
den went AMK wanted K box

but since so ex and zarel oni can stay till 6 plus
den we went to lan play audi
1 hr audi later
we went out to play arcade
oni played 1 game of mario kart~
LOL addicted riaos le luh~
ever since play it at mr beh house LOL

den went back home afterwards
den frantically searching for $$$
so that can go down eat dinner
den finally found enuff
went down
den the idiot anker buay song i give 5cents
KNS LA GIVE U BUSINESS U STILL KPKB ME FUCK YOU
sienz luh
now go audi riaos
cuz 2day play with erzi zMemories den i dc cuz times up~

JOKE OF THE DAY~
actually we wanted find the foodcourt de
den we dk walk where
den next to the fairprice got 1 escalater going up
that kinda for trolley de escalator
den we went up
but go higher den more hotter
den we discovered that it was a carpark on top
GUESS WHAT WE DID
WE RAN DOWN THE ESCALATOR
like ppl from IMH right?
hahas

TheLonelyTeddy

Friday, May 1, 2009 8:38:00 PM

can you at least show sum affection anot
y u like veri cold towards me sia
do i have a boyfriend?
sienz i feel like dying
life is such a drag
hmm who can spon me beer or wine

mummeh mai sad le luh
try to forget
i am sure you can do it derhx
and stop drinking plz it is nt good for ur health
let time heal ur wound
be strong
you can tide over
dun feel so lost plz
there is always a compass to show the way
is oni the fog that makes it difficult to see
i will be there for you when you need me
juz dont tink foolish

TheLonelyTeddy

4:38:00 PM

wed bo contact me
thur bo contact me
2day bo contact me

what are you doing

did you know that i miss you
did you know that i love you
did you know that i want you

i do not wish to use my semi developed brain to think what are you doing
i juz want you to come talk to me first
at least show sum affection

haiz

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, April 30, 2009 2:22:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009 11:25:00 PM

no sense of security leh
idk luh
nw days most guys oni go fer 1 thing
and the impression u gave me is that
u patch cuz u wan that and nt cuz u still love me

2day ttl super miss mummeh and bii~

i tink nicholas pek chek riaos
cuz i said i will call him someday but i haven done it till now~

everyday so damn sian sia~

i tink my sec 4 sku life coming back soon
cuz i feeling like pon-ing sku
and i dun tink there will be ppl to stop me to pon

but i cnt pon cuz i wan to get a good GPA and go to ngee ann polytechnic
i wan i must i can do it

No matter how difficut life may seem, we must never let our circumstances dicate our decisions (Ruth 1:1-6)

Either raise your standards to meet your expectations,or lower your standards o meet your performance (Isaiah 59:19 Proverbs 23:6-8)

Only the irresponsible are willing to sacrifice the future in order to enjoy the present (Psalms 11:3 Luke 6:46-48)

Nothing is more dangerous than the moment you become a hostage to yesterday comfort zone (Philippians 3:13-15 Revelation 3:14-19)

Whatever you refuse to conquer today will be next to impossible to conquer tommorow(Matthew 5:29-30, 6:19-21 James 5:16)

Everything that rolls out to the sea will eventually roll back, what happened yesteday will definately come back

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, April 27, 2009 11:42:00 PM

1. Love is unbinding. Love is unconditional. It means that you take the person for all that they are... love is friendship first. Love is 51% from both sides. Love is being inlove with the person, not the idea.

2. Love is having chemistry. Its a spark that you cant describe but is just there. Its a fairytale ending with a lot of joys in between. Love feels good, it creates hope and happiness. Love lives within you and never quite goes away.

3. having a common understanding... finding someone that appreciates you.

4. Love is a way of showing someone you care. Love means your never alone. It keeps you going, you live for it, you take ahold and nothing is more important. Your top priority is the other person and when you love them, you give them all of yourself.

Which is ur defination of love
only can choose 1

TheLonelyTeddy

11:21:00 PM

say hi 2 me when u on9 cuz i miss you
dun always let me start hie den u den hie
it makes me feel unimportant~

dun come talk 2 me only when u nid me cuz i nid u
it makes me feel being used~

2day veri unhappy

1st thing quarrel with my mum cuz of my daily allowance
but now not much problem le
2nd thing is cuz my mind always like to find bones in eggs
think too much liao

but now happy back riaos
a bit bit happy back nia~

2day wasted sio~
should have can buy cash de
den... *cries*
i wasted those $$$ to buy stationary and food

GRRR
tired riaos~... i tink? LOL

i go slp riaos~
... right after my facebook restuarant city ppl rest enuff
den i make them work
den i off comp den slp

TheLonelyTeddy

Sunday, April 26, 2009 10:45:00 PM

haiz~
a pretty stressed out day?

and y stress?
cuz myself make de problem

well~
i tink wun stress le bahz

my heart kinda settle down riaos

idk leh~
i feel that yar~
i like to run away from problems because i do not like to face problems
i mean i feel very stress out

so always run away den drag the problem and... haiz~
kkz luh~ i try nt to do that anymore luh

Warning to all :
juz dun do things quietly,
i knw hw to make ppl guess
but i do nt like to guess
and i am not that clever to guess things
gah~ i oso dk hw explain~

example :
my mum always will do loads of things for me
and that is her way of care and concern for me
but she does things silently
and make me feel she dun care or concern

hmm~ in other words means...
i nid ppl to assure me of sumthings
every few days or so

or else i will feel like no security
and i will go think
whether WAS it true or fake

like my mum alr veri long time never assure me
that she still love and care and concern me le
so i will start to think whether she still love care and concern me mahz

GRRR i wan die riaos i oso dk hw explain sio

juz do not tink that i write this is cuz i wan say abt my mum
i meant sum people out there is the crowd of msn fwens i have

hope u people clever enuff understand what i meant bahz
cuz i dun dare say out my point
so have to beat around the bush just to make my point

yeah~ im trying to hint 8 ppl with the same hint~
hope u 8 peeps understand bahz~

TheLonelyTeddy

11:28:00 AM

juz dun mistaken anything when readin my blog~
juz ranting out what i felt?
this blog aint supposed to give anyone see
is more like a platform to tell ppl how i feel
i mean the post aint meant to shoot to a certain person
is more likecuz i do not dare to tell ppl how i feel or think
so this might be a platform to how i think and feel

能选择喜欢或爱上一个人吗，喜欢了，爱上了，就是了当你爱上或喜欢上一个人请问要多久才会忘记

「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」
倘若你爱上一个人，千万别装作无所谓毫不在乎
错过了，就没有了
爱情，玩不起心理战的
机会只来那么一次
奇迹很难才会出现
有机会就好好抱握不要等到机会跑了
你才懂得珍惜

我跟他在一起很快乐
但伤害我的也很深
但我怕他又会再伤害我

我又怕sleepycat不能让我那么快乐
而且我真的不知道该怎么办

应为我不想他们两个其中一个不开心
我真的很乱昨天晚上都没睡好 5点睡觉8点起床

最终我选择了等待
我选择是对的吗？

希望我不会再次选错吧

TheLonelyTeddy

4:12:00 AM

my world turnned topsy turvy once more

no i do not have any particular meaning on saying this happen cuz who

is juz that my heart still cnt tell me which path to take

TheLonelyTeddy

Saturday, April 25, 2009 11:27:00 PM

2day wake up ard 9:15
den siao a bit bit
den audi a bit bit with laogong
den he went ... 4got riaos
den i went find duke zhou(which means sleeping LOL)
den yeah~ kinda chatting with dennon
y my heart always waver when talk with him de
izzit cuz i still cnt get over?
but i tot i gotten over riaos?
haiya idk la
always wanted to patch bec with him when talk to him
but cuz that march 24th post i den never
so i always try not to talk to him unless necessary
den called mama cuz i tink i can oni confide in her oni bahz
den mama oso has her set of problems
haiz
i rily do not understand
y people get into relationships even thought they know pain and anguish will arise

eh~ juz dun mistaken~
i have no special in saying out this~
i mean...
is juz smth deep down which i wan scream out but yet imprisoned too long
i can go pek chek when i imprison certain feeling too long
laogong mai jump to conclusions leh

if sum1 caused u pain and anguish when u 2 are in a relationship

the only thing that makes you hang onto it is because u still love him
the thing that make you not to hang onto it is because u cant take it anymore

so~
when u get into this kinda situation
what will u do?

i choose giving up cuz i thought he didnt love me anymore cuz his actions??

matters of the heart are so difficult to understand

the oni reason that i didnt tried to patch bec with him is cuz
i sent him that long letter posted on 24march~

becuz of that i didnt return to the ole drawing board

was it better if i didnt return
or better if i did return?

was it cuz we didnt communicate enuff?
never sit down and talk properly

idk~
but i knw that
that time b4 send that long letter to him we talked a bit
and that was when i didnt know whether did i made a mistake
cuz talking to him made me not want to send that letter to him
but since the whole time tgt caused me quite sum pain and anguish?
feel like he didnt care enuff
feel like he didnt love me
feel like dun have enuff security
feel like he will leave me
zeh was right? i didnt tell him everything which is hidden in my heart
or izzit he never ask so i never say?
haiz~

叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树得不挽留

well~
i think i didnt get much love from my family
cuz everytime i get scorned for everything i do?

my dad divorced with my mum when i was primary 4
cuz he got other women behind my mum bec

im a person who likes praise alot
but my mum juz like to put me down

my sis acts juz like my mum
threatenning everything i do
no do this no $$$ no do that no tv no this no that

their love for me is shown in a quiet way
which i dun like
i rather a person show her love or affection out loud

juz cuz i dun feel any love coming from my family members

and cuz i hate been such a pain in the neck in sec sku
i oso get no friendship

that's y so lonely

i juz know that if sum1 love me i will love him bec more~
cuz i wan to be loved~
there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

i dun like to be a loner
i rily hate the lonely life a lot

but the only reason that i never commit suicide though i tink abt it a lot is cuz
i tink i could find 1 person in the universe that still loves me

tinking of it more
idk how put it

i wan go bec to the ole days~
but yeah~ cuz that letter so i didnt

i wan the days go faster~
but yeah~ idk will i experience the same pain and anguish again

all this happen cuz i wan feel luv again
and i tink i fall in love quite easily

cuz

i want to find love
i want to be loved
i want to know what is being loved
i want to feel loved once again

no i am not despo
i juz wan to feel being loved
所以我对那些所称爱我的人这么容易产生好感

i am always willing to do anything to feel loved
that y i so listen to those whom i love

so who can tell me what to do sia
i love my laogong
but my heart is wavering cuz my ex
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TheLonelyTeddy

2:09:00 AM

2day 5am wake up~
den debated with myself wan go sku anot
den wanted to go
den slept summore
den oversleep
den 8:30 sharon call
den talk finish i call my bii
den i go do homework and play comp
den call my bii again
den play comp games again
den call my bii again
den sleep
den wake up
den play comp games again
den call bii again
den play comp games again
den went down eat dinner
den come back call bii again
den play audi again
den blog again

boring rite?

i decided not to pontang sku again~
I SWEAR

bii~ wo ai ni~
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TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, April 23, 2009 9:41:00 PM

2day morning wake up wanted to pon sku
but i see got OFA den i dun pon or else i get laid back in the module
den i tinking POA sleep in class de
den i was playing PSP like siao
dj max~ audition~
den audition on psp~
i play like using keyborad lidat
so werid sio~
but veri fun~
I WAN PASS THAT 136 YOU SONG
or els i wun be qualified as a HS member sop
GRRR

den OFA that TanKL teach things again
but veri sian sia
OFA lesson like teaching how to start the comp lidat
everytime oso~
step 1 blah blah blah
step 2 blah blah blah
step 3 blah blah blah

GRRRR
lame sio~
den my comp de stupid mouse wun work sio~
I HATE J00
luckily cher gave me another mouse to work with
den i went dl WLM
see next lesson can use anortch?
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i soo evil rite?
hehe~
i juz wan to chat with ppl during boring class lessons
cos the cher always crap there derhx
den i nvm lo~!
i play fb i WLM i PSP i do everything possible that wun make me so sian during their lessons

tml come bec home den i be guai kia
i go do more exercises fer the POA
i wan to be ahead and not lagging behind
cos zarel, sinyee and sharon all neh listen in class de(no offence here)

BASED ON TEDDY LOGIC
POA is to understand
u neh understand how much u practice there will not be any output
cos nothing goes in
sian sio~
how to make them listen to mr foong in class arhz?
i dun wan slack in ite

i MUST prove to my mother that ppl who go ite to study DO NOT slack
i must prove to her ite make me into another person
which WANTS to study
which IS GOING to study
which WILL excel
which IS GOING to excel
i must prove her wrong for all those insult from her to me
from all those words she gave when she knew i going to ite
from every discouraging word she gave
I MUST PROVE HER WRONG

2day in sku so miss bii sio~ sian~
den bec at home den cor him
he at work =.=
den 6~7 gort chat a while~
den juz nw chatting~
den now chatting AGAIN~
bii i lurbb j00~
dun go be human flesh pao in ba xian fan dian
or else later i sad leh

TheLonelyTeddy

Wednesday, April 22, 2009 6:56:00 PM

I HATE WEDNESDAYS
cos is 8~5
GRRR

the ... last cher of the day like stalker sia
everytime like scared we pon his lesson
sure wan track us to the lesson b4 his lesson de classroom
sian sia~
cnt pontang his lesson~
GRRRRRRRR

the lao ah pek got a little bit change bahz
i think not so boring for me liaos
cos it started going practical
I LOVE PRACTICAL POA
i hate theory POA

den that ... rajas and... that ah gong...
I HATE THAT AH GONG SIA~
KNS SIA
everytime sum1 de comp got problem he sure wan to kpkb there
he will talk to himself starting with
1st step check blah blah blah
2nd step ...
3rd step
BTH HIM SIO

I LOVE ANGELINA~
her expression veri funni sio~
i went gave her the link to go whr dl my homework~
den she go take pic of that link~
wonder how i get graded neh?

lunch time simply drank coke
cos i knew it going to bloat my tummy
den i no nid feel hungry riaos~

=D i miss my bii sio~
i gg call him riaos~ *shy*

TO EVERYONE WHOM KNOWS ME
I AM NOT LES EVEN THOUGH I USE THAT STUPID I AM LES TRICK TO TRICK YOUS~
but maybe sumday i rily les den how sio~ *shy*

TheLonelyTeddy

Tuesday, April 21, 2009 6:37:00 PM

YEAH bec at home le~
sian~
bii dk doing what sia~
tio converted to voice mail~
bii~ i miss u~

TheLonelyTeddy

4:28:00 PM

sian sia~
want to sleep le~
cos finish the classwork liao~

i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
i could go bec home NOW
cos i wan go call my bii~
sian sia~

bii~ imyilyiwy~ muacks~

TheLonelyTeddy

Monday, April 20, 2009 8:02:00 PM

Yeah~
Found another audi cpl le~
so fun >_<
bii~ i lurb chiu~

2day in sku so boring sia~
1st lesson OFA
teacher late by 5 minutes
and all students sweat like siao cos no air blowing~ GAH~
den we learnt abt microsoft word
abt sum shortcut keys(which u might not know)
did u know that insert=overwrite=u no nid becspace
no wonder most of the time i so pek chek when i accidentally pressed insert

2nd lesson 4get name of lesson riaos~
the stupid bunch of guys in my class so damn... sia
teacher play that
cannot hear sound vid and veri softly played song for us to fill in 2 worksheets
den most of the guys dk how to diam when they are supposed to
GRRRR
no offense to any guy who i 'mentioned' juz nw~

3rd LUNCH~ HURRAY~
went out eat again cos the canteen food is legendary EWWWW
ate lemon chicken cutlet...AGAIN
den went bec sku after eating

4th lesson POA
arh pek again~
talk so soft
and so...sia
that stupid Q he posted on first day alr made me pek chek him le
WE ARE SUPPOSED TO ADD 1000 TO LIABILITIES YET HE JUST USE THAT
kip the Q simple TO ANSWER~
GRRRRRRRRR
but this lesson a bit fun den last few cos CAN DO CLASSWORK LE
i juz realised i nvr deprove in POA LOL

5th lesson~ last lesson~ PE
cher gave sum RULES
and give us fill in smth called bio data form
den fill lo~
later i go sign up my cca on9
I WAN ROCK CLIMBING AND BILLARDS

teachers no matter whatever name they are is always called CHER
so i do not bother to know their name very well
aws over the time u hear ppl cor more den u rmb le~

TheLonelyTeddy

Sunday, April 19, 2009 10:29:00 AM

是我太愚蠢还是太天真
怎么总是被人骗
爱上了他结果发现他不爱我了
喜欢上了他结果发现他是花花公子
友情一个一个消失
只有那些会给机会来了解我的人
才会和我做真正的朋友
朋友。。。我有很多
真心朋友。。。4或5个把
是我处理东西的方式错了吗
还是有其他原因
和妈妈和姐姐的感情变什么了？
以前每天说话，几天才吵一次架
现在每天一开口就吵架，
所说的话只有。。。妈，零用钱呢？
我觉得我做人很失败
太失败

TheLonelyTeddy

Thursday, April 16, 2009 11:39:00 PM

well~

life gotta continue~

no use sianning over the same thing over and again and again

i dun wish to cry anymore

hmm for those who know me in real~

actually u can notice i dun cry easily

juz haiz too saddenning

im a hyper person

but when i quieten down and think abt all those recent happennings...

i feel veri emo~

actually it does helps~

mama rmb what i told u over the fone hor?

i cnt possibly write everything down here cos

there are people reading my blog whom i wun relate certain things to~

wish all the best bahz

i hate my life

FML(fuck my life)

TheLonelyTeddy

6:41:00 PM

sianned~~

2day IS OOS SOOOO SHIOK

but nv play psp that much riaos~

but listen song a bit more riaos

YAHOO~ I GOT MY TEENAGE RIAOS

borrowed jacket frm ting~ ( tks ting~ no nid cold riaos)

bot another bdae gift fer my sis~

watching KNOWING with zeh and ace~

EMOKIA I WAN MIT U LA~

I WAN SIGN UP FOR ROCK CLIMBING AND BILLARDS~

TheLonelyTeddy

Wednesday, April 15, 2009 6:37:00 PM

WHY ARE ALL GUYS WHOM I KNOW IS SO ROTTEN?

TheLonelyTeddy

5:14:00 PM

YEAH~

HYPER~

the oni... hyper guaikia? LOL

tml go macperson

sharon and dorathea wan pon

i be guai gg

COS I WAN GO FOR ROCK CLIMBING OR BILLARDS

hmm

maybe is true

new sku
new enviroment
new energy

emokia
u good lo
first say okay
den after say dun wan le la
...
TT_TT
i wan mit u neh~
b4 i kill u u better quick mit with me lar
mai say u will shy
shy simi?
i veri good to talk with de
anth
plus my bunch of super lame fwens
WAKAKA

TheLonelyTeddy

Tuesday, April 14, 2009 11:23:00 PM

很久没有哭了
今天哭了
我是心理弱了吗？
三次都是应为
和妈妈说姐姐的事

我知道
如果我有这种妹妹我也会痛恨她

姐你说得没错
我和dennon在一起时都把每个人当透明
又需要才找你们没事就不理不睬
以前我们可以hack ubp 3 小时
但我和dennon在一起
我就会想尽办法不去玩除非他也有玩
你要需要帮忙我一定不再
但我需要你的帮忙你一定在

哥哥也说得没错
我是个自私的人
只知道我喜欢什么我不喜欢什么
从来没有想过别人的看法
忽略了你和妈妈的感受

姐我只想说
我知道你还恨我
但是我对你和妈妈比亲姐姐和妈妈跟好

我知道我这个妹妹很‘好’
你好不容易过了不知有多久才找到一个情侣
那我就帮你赶走它

那时我没有想太多
意气用事
只是觉得他在利用你帮他赚fp

当天晚上我立刻道歉
但是之后我不敢和你说话
体能为我不敢想象
因为我害怕
因为我不知道什么事情会发生
因为我知道是我的错
你大发雷霆也是应该的
我很想跟你说对不起
但是我怕你会比现在还火冒三丈

我只想跟你说

如果是别人我早已经把这朋友扔掉了
我不会想怎么样挽回这段友情

我重视你这个朋友
我只想回到去以前
January 2009
我们三个人 SHL
在一起多快乐的时光

若你肯原谅我
那你要我答应或做什么
我什么都无所谓

你可以告诉我怎么样才可以回到以前吗？

这都是我的真心话
我在blog里写的永远只有感想和真心话
我要就写不然不会写
我不会编故事写在这里的

ma i know u will sure say give her some time
but i rily dun like now like this you know?
if you dunno abt this i tell u
i treat u guys as better den RL fwends or family
i dun tell them anything in my heart
the 1st readers to my previous blog is hui
den u den chunhui and xinhui
dennon oso didnt know abt my blog
until b4 i wan brk with him that time

did u noticed
when u playing with jie no matter how much
i would like to play with you i will stay far far away?

i feel veri suffuocated
i rily hate what is happenning now
i believe u reckon oso
u is the meat btw the 2 hamburger bread

i rily wan things to go back how they were last time
tell me how to how to return
dun tell me give her some time

TheLonelyTeddy