2day wake up ard 9:15
den siao a bit bit
den audi a bit bit with laogong
den he went ... 4got riaos
den i went find duke zhou(which means sleeping LOL)
den yeah~ kinda chatting with dennon
y my heart always waver when talk with him de
izzit cuz i still cnt get over?
but i tot i gotten over riaos?
haiya idk la
always wanted to patch bec with him when talk to him
but cuz that march 24th post i den never
so i always try not to talk to him unless necessary
den called mama cuz i tink i can oni confide in her oni bahz
den mama oso has her set of problems
haiz
i rily do not understand
y people get into relationships even thought they know pain and anguish will arise

eh~ juz dun mistaken~
i have no special in saying out this~
i mean...
is juz smth deep down which i wan scream out but yet imprisoned too long
i can go pek chek when i imprison certain feeling too long
laogong mai jump to conclusions leh

if sum1 caused u pain and anguish when u 2 are in a relationship

the only thing that makes you hang onto it is because u still love him
the thing that make you not to hang onto it is because u cant take it anymore

so~
when u get into this kinda situation
what will u do?

i choose giving up cuz i thought he didnt love me anymore cuz his actions??

matters of the heart are so difficult to understand

the oni reason that i didnt tried to patch bec with him is cuz
i sent him that long letter posted on 24march~

becuz of that i didnt return to the ole drawing board

was it better if i didnt return
or better if i did return?

was it cuz we didnt communicate enuff?
never sit down and talk properly

idk~
but i knw that
that time b4 send that long letter to him we talked a bit
and that was when i didnt know whether did i made a mistake
cuz talking to him made me not want to send that letter to him
but since the whole time tgt caused me quite sum pain and anguish?
feel like he didnt care enuff
feel like he didnt love me
feel like dun have enuff security
feel like he will leave me
zeh was right? i didnt tell him everything which is hidden in my heart
or izzit he never ask so i never say?
haiz~

叶子的离开， 是因为风的追求， 还是树得不挽留

well~
i think i didnt get much love from my family
cuz everytime i get scorned for everything i do?

my dad divorced with my mum when i was primary 4
cuz he got other women behind my mum bec

im a person who likes praise alot
but my mum juz like to put me down

my sis acts juz like my mum
threatenning everything i do
no do this no $$$ no do that no tv no this no that

their love for me is shown in a quiet way
which i dun like
i rather a person show her love or affection out loud

juz cuz i dun feel any love coming from my family members

and cuz i hate been such a pain in the neck in sec sku
i oso get no friendship

that's y so lonely

i juz know that if sum1 love me i will love him bec more~
cuz i wan to be loved~
there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

i dun like to be a loner
i rily hate the lonely life a lot

but the only reason that i never commit suicide though i tink abt it a lot is cuz
i tink i could find 1 person in the universe that still loves me

tinking of it more
idk how put it

i wan go bec to the ole days~
but yeah~ cuz that letter so i didnt

i wan the days go faster~
but yeah~ idk will i experience the same pain and anguish again

all this happen cuz i wan feel luv again
and i tink i fall in love quite easily

cuz

i want to find love
i want to be loved
i want to know what is being loved
i want to feel loved once again

no i am not despo
i juz wan to feel being loved
所以我对那些所称爱我的人这么容易产生好感

i am always willing to do anything to feel loved
that y i so listen to those whom i love

so who can tell me what to do sia
i love my laogong
but my heart is wavering cuz my ex
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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